How to Make Lemonade

I had no Idea how much I would be dissapointed I didn't use a blow dryer. I did have a great convo today that helped remind me why I was so excited to start this adventure. Staying greatful for everything, even the little things.

“Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate.

Well new guy was not the guy for me. oh well another one bites the dust! lol All I can say is peer pressure comes in many forms. Luckily D.A.R.E. taught me to just say no, and i did just that. and I am so0o happy now. fact is if anything make you uncomfortable then you need to get out of that situation. it is just not fair to yourself, or anyone expect you to change or want to change them.

anywho enough of vague pep talks... I have too much else to worry about.

I have a serious migraine coming on, my first sign is my eyebrow twitches, how crazy is that?? I don't know how to explain it but as soon as my eyebrow titches I know I have to be careful of loud noises.

I figured if I can learn how to not die from a head ache, I will be just fine from a heart ache x0x

If ifs and buts were candy and nuts...

.. everyday would be Christmas!
New things are scary, and meeting new people forget it! lol Like any jersey girl Confidence is my middle name( and my first and last name too) however grew up in a house with a father who made my mother feel as big as a thumb tack! (and was out the door before i was 5)so self esteem was not a word I grew up with at all.

HA! that is the advise my mother would give!


yea it blows away my family I turned into a strong confident person (reason 1234567876543 why my parents divorce was the best thing for me) I would love to be a public speaker one day! however the one thing that stops me in my track are other peoples parents, I have zero experience! I know to be myself buuuttt, one frog in my past his parents were serious dragons! they didn't approve of my "hippie nonsense" and the frog said well that's what happens when you have an opinion WTF?! the problem, is it has now taken my I don't understand what "normal" parents do, to feeling like I'll never know what thats like so don't get too attached! ugh I hate feeling like I'm pouring salt into my own wound!!!! but tonight I'm meeting someone new, and hoping I can stay in the moment and enjoy it, and not worry about who says what! thanks to Irish for reminding me "When people hurt you over & over again, think of them like a sandpaper. You may be scratched, but you end up polished & they end up useless."
now this polished girl has to pick out an outfit for tonight!!


What is your achilles tendon of your self esteem? what helps you deal?